Valuing people more than Pigs,

‭Mark‬ ‭5:1‭-‬20‬ ‭NIV‬
[1] They went across the lake to the region of the Gerasenes. [2] When Jesus got out of the boat, a man with an impure spirit came from the tombs to meet him. [3] This man lived in the tombs, and no one could bind him anymore, not even with a chain. [4] For he had often been chained hand and foot, but he tore the chains apart and broke the irons on his feet. No one was strong enough to subdue him. [5] Night and day among the tombs and in the hills he would cry out and cut himself with stones. [6] When he saw Jesus from a distance, he ran and fell on his knees in front of him. [7] He shouted at the top of his voice, “What do you want with me, Jesus, Son of the Most High God? In God’s name don’t torture me!” [8] For Jesus had said to him, “Come out of this man, you impure spirit!” [9] Then Jesus asked him, “What is your name?” “My name is Legion,” he replied, “for we are many.” [10] And he begged Jesus again and again not to send them out of the area. [11] A large herd of pigs was feeding on the nearby hillside. [12] The demons begged Jesus, “Send us among the pigs; allow us to go into them.” [13] He gave them permission, and the impure spirits came out and went into the pigs. The herd, about two thousand in number, rushed down the steep bank into the lake and were drowned. [14] Those tending the pigs ran off and reported this in the town and countryside, and the people went out to see what had happened. [15] When they came to Jesus, they saw the man who had been possessed by the legion of demons, sitting there, dressed and in his right mind; and they were afraid. [16] Those who had seen it told the people what had happened to the demon-possessed man—and told about the pigs as well. [17] Then the people began to plead with Jesus to leave their region. [18] As Jesus was getting into the boat, the man who had been demon-possessed begged to go with him. [19] Jesus did not let him, but said, “Go home to your own people and tell them how much the Lord has done for you, and how he has had mercy on you.” [20] So the man went away and began to tell in the Decapolis how much Jesus had done for him. And all the people were amazed.

In this encounter we meet:

1. A man who is a mess

2. A man who meets Jesus

3. A man who has a message

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First Impressions

What’s the first impression you want to give people?

I want the first impression that I leave with people to be that I am friendly I am worthy of being asked questions about myself, and with that said they do not have to be questions like what happened to you? I also want people to understand that I can speak my mind and be a leader in spaces where I am needed and wanted. Lastly, I want people to see that I am bold enough to ask tough questions.

I love this book

Apparently I forgot to press publish on this post. I got this book a month ago and I finished it in 2 days

I just got Cut Loose in my audible collection yesterday and I am obsessed with it!! This might be a spoiler, but I’m at a part where Nat is comforting some Ableism from castmates as well as some internalized ableism. I can honestly admit that the woman I am now that I am now that I have dealt with both situations. I know what it feels like to want to feel and look “normal” in front of a handsome guy or any popular girl, so you do whatever you can to supposedly make your chair disappear.
I also know what it feels like to tell myself at least I look better than so and so. What I’m describing is internal ableism because it’s ableism against yourself and other people within the disabled community. Ableism is when a nondisabled person looks at someone who has a disability and thinks or says, you shouldn’t do that because or You should do this this way because it is how I would do it. Or if you weren’t involved things would happen quicker.

My point in writing all this is that it takes work and it takes time to unlearn bad attitudes. I have also learned that for me to look the most normal, comfortable, and confident in my chair, I need some of the accessories on my chair that I’ve resisted for so long like foot straps. I’m only going to look normal when my body doesn’t feel the need to struggle or constantly adjust.