I tend to think what if about 3 things that I am passionate about.

1. What if I persude an education and career in music. When I was a freshman in highschool, I had a lot of friends who had that dream, and went off to college to do just that.

I always romantized the idea of attending The Thorten School of Music at U. S. C. I dreamed of persuing a degree in vocal performance. If I had done this I imagine that I would be a voice teacher by day and a performer by night, playing small venues and chatting with audiences the way some of my dearest friends do. As far as I know I am the only person amoung my high school choir friends who still sings on a regular basis. I could be wrong and if I Am, Eagle Rock High school peeps I wanna know.

The second thing I think what if about is, what if I had become a pediatrician. Would I be a good one? At the end of Freshman year I said I wanted to become a pediatrician, my reasoning behind that declaration was that I had spent ns huge part of my life around doctors.and I felt that I would be able to relate to children in certain medical situations. I dug into science a little bit and enjoyed it, but then in December.of 1997 I learned that I would have to have a major surgery, and I knew that I couldn’t be part of the devestation that a child faces when they hear such news. I knew from personal experience that going to see your pediatrician sometime lead to being recommended for further testing, if in fact you were not well when.you visited the doctor.

Last but not least, I think what if I had kept on with learning the art of acting. I had such fun with everything I was asked to do. I actually

Caught the Bug

Because when I was 21.my mom and I went to

Super Soap Weekend

At Disney’s California adventure ,and that is when I decided I wanted to enroll in an acting class, I had amazing instructors, my first instuctor was actually on

All My Children

As a minister who officiated a wedding, but I don’t remember who the bride and groom were. I took acting classes from the age of 21 though 26.

There are so many reasons that I feel blessed in my life. First of all I know God exist and that he loves me because I am Alive. I came into this life earlier than expected and from my first moments, I faced a wait and see situation. I needed a ventilator to breathe for me and if I survived, what kind of life would be ahead of me.

I’m blessed that I have always had a solid support system around me. My parents or grandparents were always available to take me to therapy where I expirenced the physical growth that got me to where I am today.

When I was younger I ALWAYS had a family member to watch over me. I was never left with someone who was not family.

My church family has always had my back and has Always found a way for me to participate in activities. When I was younger, my pastor, my parents or my friends would help me climb the stairs to the youth group room, choir room or Sunday school.

In the last six months or so, we realized physically getting to choir practice got tough so my choir director and life long friend made the church library our official choir room. Another blessing that surrounds my love for singing, is that my friends help me get on stage to lead worship 😊 I think it’s important to celebrate the fact that my brothers at church don’t help me take the stage, my sisters do. I could keep writing, but I’ll end this post here.

One of the things that I learned the hard way is that not everyone is meant to be in your life forever. I have had some friends in the past that I actually chose to say goodbye to.

I’m the type of person that will call sometime a friend immidiately. I learned and forgot a lesson in the course of a few Friendships, and the lesson is this. No matter who you are you are always going to be friends with imperfect people, because all people are imperfect.

However, it’s important that you be careful around people that are so hurt that they can’t focus on things that are good for them. It is important that you are there for your friends to listen when they have a problem and are hurting, but when that hurt turns into a need to gossip or a way.of emotionally harming themselves. It may be time for you to actually let them go because people influence people even though you may not realize it. Your loved ones may see a change in you that you’re not aware of.

I am grateful that I now have strong relationships with people that know they can talk about their problems, and not let their problems fully consume them to the point of bringing others down by talking about them or sticking with a relationship they know is not healthy for them because they feel like that relationship is their only option.

Thinking about others

You say, “I am allowed to do anything” —but not everything is good for you. You say, “I am allowed to do anything”—but not everything is beneficial. Don’t be concerned for your own good but for the good of others.

1 Corinthians 10:23‭-‬24

Telling Jesus all your worries

Always be full of joy in the Lord. I say it again—rejoice! Let everyone see that you are considerate in all you do. Remember, the Lord is coming soon. Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 4:4‭-‬7

When we are in pain we should:

1. Go to the Lord. He wants us to talk to him
2. Recognize that his purposes are higher than ours
3. Be confident that his grace is sufficient for our pain

The timing of this topic is so appropriate. I miss so much right now. I miss church being part of my busy schedule. I don’t intend to be mean , but having the opportunity to say

I can’t I have rehearsal

Was one of my most favorite things to do ever😊 I also miss going to see my talented performer friends in concert at Feinstein’s at Vitello’s and Sterling’s Upstairs at the Federal.

It’s been awesome over the years to not only be treated as a fan but as also be a friend to performers that I have met. I also miss my friends who are staff members at these venues, because even when I choose to go alone, I know that I never am alone.

Last but not least I miss my friends who would help me up the stage stairs at church. My brothers wouldn’t help me; more often then not my sisters would. We were able to be an example of strong women coming together to achieve a goal.

Yesterday evening , I got the opportunity to watch a concert,
@joshgroban Live at the Greek. Every other week Josh has been hosting a movie night on YouTube. Last night was a concert from his Closer tour in 2004. I was 22 at the time and I have been a #grobanite since I was 19 by the way. My experience with this concert took place over two nights one night was his full length concert and night number two was a night reserved specifically for members of his fan club. It’s a bit embarrassing but funny that I can hear . myself screaming 🤣

Dear class of 2020 congratulations on all your accomplishments! I want to take some time now to leave with you some advice.

• For 12 years of your life you were told what you needed to get done in order to be a successful person, but now that you’re an adult your education is your choice. You can choose to go to school or not.
• If you do choose to go to school, you are no less valuable if you choose to get a certificate instead of getting a degree. What matters is that you see your chosen program through from start to finish.
• This may sound strange in light of point 2, but it’s ok to change your mind.
• Speak up and remove phrases like nevermind from your vocabulary. Speak your heart
• Don’t go out into the world looking for love in order to complete you or your partner, be complete and you will be able to compliment and add something to someone’s life
• Dress well everyday leave pajamas at home
• Take up space while being respectful to others.
• If you find yourself in a situation where an I Love you cones out of your mouth, don’t be sorry or embarrassed, because the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.
• Spend time with your family as often as you spend time with your friends
• Don’t be afraid to spend time alone
• Encourage others

#Feinsteinsla

#sterlingsupstaursatthefederal

@EagleRockBaptistchurch

#Hollywoodpantages

Anywhere with family who doesn’t live with me 😊

Because of technology my Bible study group has been meeting non stop since we’ve physically been apart. We’ve even made a trendy tile video and put it on YouTube. I don’t think it’s right that so many people are protesting going to church, because right now it’s unsafe but I also can’t wait for the day I get to hug my friends again. Until then I’m good with the safe at home so I won’t be part of the problem, but rather.part of the salutation

1. I was born 11 weeks early
2. Took my first steps when I was 8 years old
3. Used a wheelchair til I was 26
4. I was on a talk show in second grade
5. I spoke at U. S. C. My freshman year of High School
6. I represented southern California at a conference in Sacramento in 10th grade
7. I was chosen to be 1 of 53 students that went to Sacramento for a conference my senior year of high School
8. I was on a TV show called Live Big with Ali Vincent
9. I’ve met actors from the casts of All my children and One Life to Live
10. I majored in child development
11. I took acting classes in college
12. I had a theatre Role written for me and my producer was my science teacher
13. I have seen Wicked 5 times
14. I’ve seen Jersey Boys 3 times
15. I had the privilege of speaking at a couple of women’s ministry events
16. I was a volunteer teaches aid for a decade
17. It took me 9 years to get out of college.
18. Mr. Holland’s opus was the reason I successfully got out of college
19. In high school I sang at private Christmas parties
20. I had the privilege of. Singing at the Dorothy Chandler Pavilion
21. I have been singing since I was 7 years old
22. I’ve been going to the same church since I was 4
23. I’m a good listener
24. I’ve known John Lloyd Young for 6 years
25. I want to go to New York some day
26. One of my favorite places in Los Angeles is the pantages in Hollywood
27. I love coffee
28. I’m not shy
29. I’ve learned to like alone time
30. Im a hugger