When I fear the Future

Since when do sheep sit at a table? What kind of banquet is this?

  • God is the host
  • I am the guest of honor
  • It’s on a battlefield

Who is the enemy?

1. The world around me

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Romans 12:2

2. Satan who is against me

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

Ephesians 6:12

3. My old nature inside me

but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me.

Romans 7:23

What does this Banquet symbolize?

1. God wants and welcomes fellowship with me.

But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you.

Psalms 5:11

2. God wants to bless me and show the world his goodness

How abundant are the good things that you have stored up for those who fear you, that you bestow in the sight of all, on those who take refuge in you.

Psalms 31:19

30 facts about me

  1. I was born 11 weeks early
  2. I started walking at the age of 8
  3. I wore braces on my legs till I was 13
  4. When I was a kid, my favorite singers were Tiffany, Debbie Gibson, Cindy Lauper, and Gloria Estefan.
  5. As far as I know, I was the first person who used a wheelchair that was a member of my junior high and high school choir
  6. I am responsible for the ramp that leads to the Eagle Rock High School auditorium stage
  7. In high school, I sang on the stage of the Dorothy Chandler pavilion
  8. I sang for city council members in high school
  9. In 9th grade, I spoke at USC to a huge group of people
  10. I represented southern California when I was invited to a meeting in Sacramento, CA, in 10th grade
  11. After high school, I was chosen as one of 53 students to be part of the governor’s youth forum on disability when Gray Davis was governor
  12. I passed sign language with the help of Mr. Holland’s Opus
  13. My entire childhood my baseball Jersey number was 13 so I don’t see it as unlucky
  14. I sang a song in sign language when I was in children’s choir
  15. I started walking long distance in 2011
  16. I have seen Jersey Boys three times and Wicked five times
  17. I met Adam Pascal twice
  18. I’ve been part of a cast of a tv show.
  19. I’ve walked a red carpet
  20. I’ve done a 5k.
  21. It’s a goal of mine to go to New York and see wicked on Broadway
  22. Barefoot in the Park is my favorite movie and play
  23. I played Corie Bratter in college
  24. A woman at my church used to call me sunshine
  25. I want to travel and tell my story
  26. Some people still think im in my 20’s
  27. I found out that some people at my church get nervous when climbing the stairs to the stage.
  28. I went by Nikki in JR. High
  29. I was on tv in second grade.
  30. I love what I do

When I’m insecure

The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Psalms 23:1‭-‬6

When David find himself in the valley he makes a You Turn.

What is a Rod and what is a staff?

A Rod is used for guarding and protecting

A staff is used guiding and directing.

How does Jesus care for his sheep?

1. If I bring him my hurt Jesus shows me compassion

When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd.

Matthew 9:36

2. If I wander away Jesus Finds Me and bring me back

3. If I trust him to save me he Keeps me saved.

My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all ; no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand.

John 10:27‭-‬29

Answering questions from my followers

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1. What Bible verse encourages you most?

Proverbs 3:5&6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path

And

Philippians 4 :13

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength

2. What is your dream vacation?

New York City for a week or Three😊

3. After High School what decisions you lead you to where you are today?

I thought I knew what I wanted when I was 14 years old I stood in front of a crowd of people and told a story about something I needed to happen and that made me want to be a ” better teacher”, then my teachers. I spent 9 years in college getting a certificate to become a teacher’s aide and when it came down 2 actually doing good job I didn’t find as much joy as I thought I would. I also felt very disrespected bye some of my coworkers so in 20 16 I left the last school I was at.

4. How do I Stay so positive?

I try as much as possible to stay grounded in my face prayer is important in my life, and I also know that I have a group of friends that I can text with prayer requests throughout the week. I love my life group; I honestly need them to get through life.

5. How and why did I become interested in music?

I became interested in music at the age of 2 my favorite artist were Cindy Lauper, Janet Jackson, Debbie Gibson, Tiffany, and Gloria Estefan. I would do concerts in my bedroom, meaning I would sing as loud as I could and ask my parents if they can hear me. My first experience in the choir was at the age of 7 at church. I was in an ensemble called Joyful Noise until I was in 8th grade. I also have memories of auditioning for my Elementary School choir when I was 7. I was asked to sing Happy Birthday 2 a classmate. Lastly, my favorite memory of falling in love with music came when I was 12. My grandmother bought our family tickets juicy Jesus Christ Superstar at the Universal Amphitheater.

6. How did you start your podcast, and why?

I started my podcast because a mentor of mine said that people AR multi-tasking more nowadays than ever. They want to hear information and learn things, but they do not want to take the time to watch a video.

answering my listeners questions

When I’m in the Valley

From Miletus, Paul sent to Ephesus for the elders of the church. When they arrived, he said to them: “You know how I lived the whole time I was with you, from the first day I came into the province of Asia. I served the Lord with great humility and with tears and in the midst of severe testing by the plots of my Jewish opponents. You know that I have not hesitated to preach anything that would be helpful to you but have taught you publicly and from house to house. I have declared to both Jews and Greeks that they must turn to God in repentance and have faith in our Lord Jesus. “And now, compelled by the Spirit, I am going to Jerusalem, not knowing what will happen to me there. I only know that in every city the Holy Spirit warns me that prison and hardships are facing me. However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.


Acts 20:17‭-‬24

Three Truths About the Valley


1. The Valley is not a sign of judgment

2. Facing the Valley Faithfully doesn’t mean Racine the valley stoically

3. Virtue is not in the valley virtue is in my faithfulness in God

Why should I Trust God in the Valley?

  1. God understands my suffering
  2. God is for me and with me
  3. The Valley is just part of the path the shepherd is using to lead me home

What happens when I stop trusting The Goodness of God


For who makes you different from anyone else? What do you have that you did not receive? And if you did receive it, why do you boast as though you did not? 1 Corinthians 4:7



1. I start cleaning credit for God’s gifts


2. I stopped asking God for help

If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”
Luke 11:13

Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. Hebrews 4:16


3.  I stopped trusting God in difficult times.

Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly.

Romans 5:3‭-‬6

4. I Become pessimistic about the future

How I have combated Depression

  1. Listening to learning from and laughing with Mayim Bialik
  2. Being a leader of two amazing Facebook groups United in strength and the Esther project
  3. Online concerts
  4. My church life group and text chain
  5. Being a part of becoming a master Communicator through imperfect action with Renee Marino and taking her class called communication on camera
  6. Get dressed every day
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