Faith, Dance, Books, advocacy

First Impressions

What’s the first impression you want to give people?

I want the first impression that I leave with people to be that I am friendly I am worthy of being asked questions about myself, and with that said they do not have to be questions like what happened to you? I also want people to understand that I can speak my mind and be a leader in spaces where I am needed and wanted. Lastly, I want people to see that I am bold enough to ask tough questions.

Faith, Dance, Books, advocacy

I love this book

Apparently I forgot to press publish on this post. I got this book a month ago and I finished it in 2 days

I just got Cut Loose in my audible collection yesterday and I am obsessed with it!! This might be a spoiler, but I’m at a part where Nat is comforting some Ableism from castmates as well as some internalized ableism. I can honestly admit that the woman I am now that I am now that I have dealt with both situations. I know what it feels like to want to feel and look “normal” in front of a handsome guy or any popular girl, so you do whatever you can to supposedly make your chair disappear.
I also know what it feels like to tell myself at least I look better than so and so. What I’m describing is internal ableism because it’s ableism against yourself and other people within the disabled community. Ableism is when a nondisabled person looks at someone who has a disability and thinks or says, you shouldn’t do that because or You should do this this way because it is how I would do it. Or if you weren’t involved things would happen quicker.

My point in writing all this is that it takes work and it takes time to unlearn bad attitudes. I have also learned that for me to look the most normal, comfortable, and confident in my chair, I need some of the accessories on my chair that I’ve resisted for so long like foot straps. I’m only going to look normal when my body doesn’t feel the need to struggle or constantly adjust.